Yeah, yeah, I know. I’m off-topic today, but I need to keep you up to date with my more current, balls-in-the-air craziness, as well.
What’s a story without a little contextual circus-ing? Right?
In case you’re new to my blog, here’s a bit of background—here’s where we find ourselves. I’ll orient you, but mostly I’ll orient myself—cause amidst all this high-wired, memoir-writing madness, I had almost forgotten.
My partner Sara is an international aid worker who specializes in disaster response. Thus, we’ve spent the last 2 years living abroad, first a year in Vietnam, then another in Haiti.
Two months ago Sara’s work in Port-au-Prince ended, and we came home to the US for her 3 month sabbatical —a break that began nearly two months ago now. In other words, if all goes as planned, in another month she’ll be assigned to yet another international location, and we’ll start circus-ing all over again.
The problem for me is this: because of my bipolar disorder, I don’t do well with stress, and one of the things that triggers the most stress for me is the unknown. I can’t stand “up-in-the-air.” I need to prepare my emotionally-all-over-the-map self for her pending placement, her/our return to the big top.
So why am I suddenly taking about this now—when it’s a whole month away?
Well, as I mentioned in a note yesterday, our 20 foot container from Haiti is set to arrive here in Lexington later this week—the 66 boxes inside a reminder of this other three-ringed life we lead—one I’d put somewhere in the back of my mind over the past couple of months.
So, this is just a reminder, mostly to myself (and to those of you who miss my more travel-driven posts of the past) that our return to the wild world of traveling circus is not that far off. It’s also a reminder that all recent attempts to memoir my way to a more sane way of life may be in vain. Sanity remains purely aspirational, mere clowning, as the case may be, since a return to the crazy-making, disaster-responding way of life is fast-approaching.
Now, I’ll just have to figure out how to both memoir and move at the same time. Any tips on juggling?